In the short 4 weeks that I have been getting to know my son - I have discovered one thing. The answer for everything is “Honey I think he’s hungry.” He could have LITERALLY just finished eating and whimper and my beloved will look at me with concern in his eyes “ Do you think he’s hungry?” !!!! NO no I do not think he’s hungry. That child is so full he’s oozing milk from the sides of his delightful little mouth! I understand though. Its the feeling of helplessness. Oh do I now understand. Holding a crying infant that has been fed, changed, clothed and is warm but who continues to cry. Helplessness. Not knowing what to do - how to help - what’s even wrong. Nothing soothing him. My latest attempt at dealing with my own feelings of helplessness have resulting in convincing myself he cries because he likes to hear the sound of his own voice (not completely unlikely with me as his mother! ) The reality is though - there are times and will continue to be times, that I will not be able to meet his every need. Even as his mother (heaven forbid!) A good lesson I think we all need to remember. That feeling of helplessness. In our weakness HE is made strong. Already in 4 short weeks I have prayed over my son that My Heavenly Father would comfort him, and touch him as I had no clue what to do. And HE IS FAITHFUL. In your own areas of helplessness - when there is a problem and you are simply helpless to know what to do - maybe its a financial crisis - a loved one in pain. you in your own strength can do nothing. Remember then the One who hears our cries and will never leave us or forsake us. God alone is able to meet every need. Trust that HE is NEVER helpless and lean on His strength.
I was looking through past things I've written and came across this short entry. wow does that ever feel like a century ago. how much time has changed things - one my son no longer cries incessantly (Praise you Father!) In remembering this though, it brings to mind something EVERY parent loves to say to new parents... enjoy them now - cuz they grow up soo quickly. And in each moment - well it just feels like its going to last forever. I can remember (my memory isn't THAT far gone) how exhausted, frustrated and tired I was in the beginning. Feeling like I would never sleep again.... now my son is nearly 9 months old! Such a big boy, naps and sleeps for the night all by himself.... Then tonight, after I put him to bed he simply would not settle down, so I went upstairs, took him from his crib and snuggled with him in the rocking chair. That darling child laid his head on my shoulder and promptly fell asleep. How many books do we as parents read that tell us to never rock our child to sleep..heaven forbid that we and they should enjoy that unique feeling of closeness.... I won't lie I continued to rock my baby boy for a long time this evening. For a while I simply gazed at him and adored every feature upon his lovely face. Then I rested my head, closed my eyes and just rocked with my boy. To the writers out there that discourage this - shame on you! Or maybe its pity I feel ... pity that in your desire to maintain schedule and consistency you miss the beauty of rocking your baby. To all my mama friends... Rock your baby if that's what they need. (ok maybe not every night.... ) but still... in the blink of an eye, i'm looking back to when he was 4 wks old and I felt completely helpless to ease his tears.... and now... ahhh time passes too quickly.
Goodnight dear friends. I pray that you and your little ones enjoy sweet bonding.
I was looking through past things I've written and came across this short entry. wow does that ever feel like a century ago. how much time has changed things - one my son no longer cries incessantly (Praise you Father!) In remembering this though, it brings to mind something EVERY parent loves to say to new parents... enjoy them now - cuz they grow up soo quickly. And in each moment - well it just feels like its going to last forever. I can remember (my memory isn't THAT far gone) how exhausted, frustrated and tired I was in the beginning. Feeling like I would never sleep again.... now my son is nearly 9 months old! Such a big boy, naps and sleeps for the night all by himself.... Then tonight, after I put him to bed he simply would not settle down, so I went upstairs, took him from his crib and snuggled with him in the rocking chair. That darling child laid his head on my shoulder and promptly fell asleep. How many books do we as parents read that tell us to never rock our child to sleep..heaven forbid that we and they should enjoy that unique feeling of closeness.... I won't lie I continued to rock my baby boy for a long time this evening. For a while I simply gazed at him and adored every feature upon his lovely face. Then I rested my head, closed my eyes and just rocked with my boy. To the writers out there that discourage this - shame on you! Or maybe its pity I feel ... pity that in your desire to maintain schedule and consistency you miss the beauty of rocking your baby. To all my mama friends... Rock your baby if that's what they need. (ok maybe not every night.... ) but still... in the blink of an eye, i'm looking back to when he was 4 wks old and I felt completely helpless to ease his tears.... and now... ahhh time passes too quickly.
Goodnight dear friends. I pray that you and your little ones enjoy sweet bonding.
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